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Around this time 34yrs ago I went on a blind date with a girl who I instantly fell in love with .2 yrs on i saved my dinner money to buy an engagement ring .4 yrs on we married a year later we had our eldest daughter and although she had medical conditions we stuck together on all decisions .in 98 we had another little girl we were so proud of them .in 2005 I did my nurse training my wife went back to college got amazing grades and started work as primary school teachers assistant. Through all the years she remained my best friend and I loved her so much .I told her so everyday because I never took our love for granted I always felt blessed .in 2021 my wife had a complete career change working full time for an agency ambulance transport firm .I encouraged and suported her .Throughout our marriage she always was competitive and would like to put me down .this got worse since working on the ambulance and she would work at all hours .I was feeling depressed because I used to see her getting angry and it wasn't something I'd seen that often before .on the 21st of July this year my heart was broken .I had used her phone to dial mine because I couldn't find it .when I opened her phone there was graphic evidence in words pictures and video of her affair .when I confronted her she said it had been going on for 2 years .she left that day .I was at my lowest ever and still hurt as much today .I begged her to come back as I thought I couldn't exist without her. She went living in a 1 bedroom flat on her own .her lover went back to his wife and kids .I tried to contact her but she said she would call the police on me for stalking her .I feel sick how can someone who I've been with and loved all those years be so cruel .I know I need to move on with my life but I don't know how to .