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This is so difficult for me. I live with someone I am unhappy with and been chatting online to another person who is wonderful and all I want, but she says we can  never meet. She is very firm about this. She is married to a man who has no job and cannot get a job due to a bad foot. She wants me to understand that she thinks of me always and wishes she was with me. But this is how it must be. We chat through emails and texts - we both have a second secret phone for this.  My real love is the other side of the world. The one I live with bores me to tears.  Even if I left this one I would not be with my real love. Do I tell my live in partner that I love another? Do I tell the one I love that I have been pretending to be single and live with someone? It is all so confusing and complicated and there seems no clear cut way to be happy without losing out on many things too.

I got a text from my real love who told me that she is chatting to another online person and they are very keen and talking about going to visit her. That they may end up emigrating to be there with her or near her so they can see her regularly. They sent her money to help with the bills because her husband cannot get work due to his bad foot.    She says if I can send her a lot of money to show I am genuine then maybe I can go visit her later too and maybe talk about going there to live. But this all brings back the other problem of me living with someone she does not know about.